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Title: Gone to far
Category: dont know
Blog Entry: been with same man for 22yrs ( married for 10yrs ) i should have known at the get go .  i met him at a bar ,iwent out with afew friends for some fun not looking for anything iwas 29 then  because i was married not happy though. he came up to me and asked me to dance i fell headover heels in love.i told him i was married his reply when will i see you again i couldent help my self he was so good looking. so we started dating .i met his friends his work friends boss everyone but his family he was feom another country  ,he told me not to tell people that i was married .he said that he didint want people to get the wrong idea about me. i thought ok no biggie i was a married woman he is muslum. i liked the fact that he had the same morals that i did ( wrong thing to say now that i look back ) anyway make long story short we lived togethre for 11 years i became a muslem thne he married me .he wanted children but it was to late my eggs where not goog any more i also wanted children very badley he would have made a wonderful father we where so much in love we got along great on problems any i wsa devastated when i got the news about my eggs dr. told us we could us a donor but i could not do that i started to get sick i had pain all over my body i went to dr after dr after a few months i started to feel better  about 3 yrs passed we bought a house everything was going good  he brought up the subject of baby and egg donor i was receptive so we looked in to it  we went through the prosses or shoud i say i went through (test,blood work, moore test surgy, finnially drugs needels every day) we got pg right away .i was 5 months pg when i got an infection and lost the babys again i was devestated make a long story short we have never been the same weve been to counciling but cant afford it any more dont have much money either with the economey and all we have said alot of hutful thing to each other and now immagreation is after him another long storysigned  dont know